Okay, so this one is more of a rant and less of a self loathing post. I’m angry. As I said in the last post I posted a while back, I don’t like the way I look but there is a specific person I’m just st a tad bit frustrated with. I don’t want to put her on blast so I’ll give her a different name for the sake of the post. Let’s call her Sally, (not her real name) So “Sally” comes to visit. The visit at first was pleasant, but then it turned into something unpleasant. Every word out of her mouth was weight related. I know I’m fat, I don’t care to hear about “fitness” “weight” or how my “diet is going”. It’s SHIT, “Sally” SHIT. Can we PLEASE not focus on my flaws?
Also while we’re on this rant, don’t volunteer me for something I’m not comfortable with, I’m not going to go through with it. I promise you that. Don’t talk over me when I voice my concern, I WILL cuss you out, I promise. I’m not what you see. I’m far more savage than you could ever imagine. I don’t tell you shit because you bring up shit at the worst possible times. What you see of me is what I want you to see, don’t assume you know me. Remember that fact. I’m a different person to different people. Only 4 people in this world know who I really am. Everyone else get the side I wish to show them. It’s a defense mechanism, “Sally”. Focus on your own family and not on me next time, Mkay?
